Hey guys.So I've been wondering, how love is a funny thing. I mean, people spend their lives looking for it and wanting it, and sometimes, it lasts for a lifetime, and sometimes it doesn't last at all.
I have never been in love, but I've read about it, and heard songs, and watched movies, and listend to people telling me stories about it. Some stories are sweet and simple, but people seem to embrace the stories where love is everything, and one gets so attached to the person one loves, that soon they're everything, and one just cannot seem to find a reason for living without this person. The person loved is the air one breathes.
Why couldn't it all be those simple couples like we see in movies, the ones that are not the main, the ones aside, that stick together til the end? Why are we so attracted to that other couple, the dramatic one, the one that for some reason cannot be together? The complicated couple. I'm including myself in that, sometimes I get attached to that kind of love, to that kind of power.
Now, I may have never been in love, and I don't know if someone was ever in love with me. Which scares me, cause I wanna be. I wanna find love. Those stories I was told, seem so intense, and I want so badly to experience what is like to feel like someone is my everything. I want that. I want to experience what is like to not be able to think about anything else, and miss them every second, and nothing else matters, and feel like I'd give up anything for them,and feel like life would lose its meaning if I ever lost them. I want to feel that kind of power on me. And I'm aware this is dangerous, and I might be broken, and that it might take a long time for me to get over and move on, but in the end, I just think all of it will be worth it. It'll leave me with the most incredible memories, that I'll probably take to my grave. Crazy?
I wanna experince being in love! And i think I'm even more scared of never finding love than I'm am of finding and losing it. If I find it and it lasts forever, great. What could be better?
And if I find it and lose it, and manage to move on, maybe in the end I can end up finding that other love, the one that's simple and unexpected.
Not like Edward and Bella, or Jesse and Suze, but like Monica and Chandler.
If I'm not making any sense to you... well that's just me. Crazy and weird as hell.
