To Be Or Not To Be?

Hey Guys!

So, it wasn't long ago when I thought this was a stupid question. "To be or not to be" I mean, who wonders that?

But then I started to think it is something we should ask ourselves. See, I've got this friend who's been annoying me for a pretty good time now. She wants to prove to the world that she's simple and humble and not shallow and focused in her studies. Then you think: what's wrong with that? nothing, I'd say. When this does not become an obssesion with being perfect and showing the world that she's not just another futile girl.

I mean, is like everything we say she's on defense. She just focus way too much energy on what she should not be than on what she is. She can't have a cellphone, she can't have two shoes, more than two colours of pen in her case, she can't kiss, go to parties. what's that about? And she's not one of those girls who don't want it, who don't think about it, she just feels she can't have it or she'd be tagged like one more in this material world. Gosh, is so annoying.

So while she's out there in the world, not being and studying only, she starts to wonder why the hell she's so lonely. And then she starts to make a victim of herself. I just can't be around her anymore. She pushed me away.

Well, aside from everything about her that's been irritating me lately, I should give her the advice: leave you be! Be girl, be! Don't waste your time not being. It only shows you do care, in fact, you care way too much.

Worth It

Hey guys.
So I've been wondering, how love is a funny thing. I mean, people spend their lives looking for it and wanting it, and sometimes, it lasts for a lifetime, and sometimes it doesn't last at all.

I have never been in love, but I've read about it, and heard songs, and watched movies, and listend to people telling me stories about it. Some stories are sweet and simple, but people seem to embrace the stories where love is everything, and one gets so attached to the person one loves, that soon they're everything, and one just cannot seem to find a reason for living without this person. The person loved is the air one breathes.

Why couldn't it all be those simple couples like we see in movies, the ones that are not the main, the ones aside, that stick together til the end? Why are we so attracted to that other couple, the dramatic one, the one that for some reason cannot be together? The complicated couple. I'm including myself in that, sometimes I get attached to that kind of love, to that kind of power.

Now, I may have never been in love, and I don't know if someone was ever in love with me. Which scares me, cause I wanna be. I wanna find love. Those stories I was told, seem so intense, and I want so badly to experience what is like to feel like someone is my everything. I want that. I want to experience what is like to not be able to think about anything else, and miss them every second, and nothing else matters, and feel like I'd give up anything for them,and feel like life would lose its meaning if I ever lost them. I want to feel that kind of power on me. And I'm aware this is dangerous, and I might be broken, and that it might take a long time for me to get over and move on, but in the end, I just think all of it will be worth it. It'll leave me with the most incredible memories, that I'll probably take to my grave. Crazy?

I wanna experince being in love! And i think I'm even more scared of never finding love than I'm am of finding and losing it. If I find it and it lasts forever, great. What could be better?
And if I find it and lose it, and manage to move on, maybe in the end I can end up finding that other love, the one that's simple and unexpected.

Not like Edward and Bella, or Jesse and Suze, but like Monica and Chandler.

If I'm not making any sense to you... well that's just me. Crazy and weird as hell.

Speak Up

Hey guys!

So, this is my first post, and what I want to say is speak up, raise your voice.

I'm so tired of being silenced. Maybe that's a part of why I created this blog.I want to express myself without being judged and labed and misread all the time

The world keeps trying to shut us up more and more each day, and it's making me want to get locked in my room, turn on the radio, and scream loud. And then run, as far and fast as I can. Pretty fucked up, huh?

But what I mean is, we shouldn't give up on being ourselves so someone will like us, so we can get in on a clique from school, or so we won't disappoint someone we love. It's hard, no one wants to be alone. But the more you keep pretending you're someone you're not, the further you get from who you really are. And that's horrible.

Everybody likes to feel loved, but trust me, that feeling is so much better when you know that love was meant for you, for who you are. The one's who really care about you, will accept you for you, will love you for you. And that's the love you should want.

Like Dr Seuss said "Be who you are and say how you feel, because those who matter don't mind, and those who mind don't matter."

Change is good, but if it will make you a better person somehow, if it will make you feel better about yourself. Don't change who you are cause of somebody else, you'll get lost in the end.

And remember: do what you're good at, everybody's good at something, appreciate your own talents and ideas. And let it out, speak up! Remember, if you're being censored, is cause your idea's worth something.

It's time to shout at the world, cause we're here, we're alive.

And maybe we want to stand out, but maybe we just want to be part of the mob. Either way, I hope each one of us get to be who we wanna be, who we are.

SCREAM LOUD AT THE TOP OF OUR LUNGS!

ps: did that made sense to anybody?